I know... I know, I've been sitting on my large ass for faaar tooo looong...
Sibling, cousins, friends, colleagues... rejoice! I have finally decided to do the right thing and... erh... lost my train of thought there... oh yeah, update y'all with whatever that's going on in my life. Surprising, considering that we are all living on the same island, in the same time zone, yet we can get so disconnected with each other sometimes. There I go again, if I am not sitting on me bum thinking about what I am supposed to be doing, I'll be going off tangent.
Focus, Fin, focus!
Yeah, I'm still me. Apart from a few more grey hairs (bless my hairdresser) and definitely loads more kilos (I'll start the diet tomorrow, I promise), I'm still me. All 32years of it. And proud of it.
Enough of the intro, sounds so cheesy. As if you don't know me already.
God has been very good to me, even though I have not been thanking Him enough. The idea is there, but I just gotta get it into motion. So much for New Year's Resolution. Not talking about the 2008 ones, the Muharram ones. Praying is still an effort for me. I know, I know, blast me, shoot me straight to hell. Damn it, it should be second nature to me. But what the heck is wrong with me? Setan da serap dalam sangat ke? I need to do some serious thinking here.
Maybe that's the reason I find happiness so superficial. I mean, yeah, I laugh, I feel happy, but deep inside I feel kinda unfulfilled. Like something's missing. Faith. Can't lose sight of it. Hope. Can't let it go, no matter what.
Dammit, Fin, get started.
Lately, I find myself asking a lot of questions. And getting frustrated 'coz I can't get answers to them. And I talk to myself a lot. Am I crazy?
Still not too late, I hope. For redemption.
Take the first step. You don't have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Sibling, cousins, friends, colleagues... rejoice! I have finally decided to do the right thing and... erh... lost my train of thought there... oh yeah, update y'all with whatever that's going on in my life. Surprising, considering that we are all living on the same island, in the same time zone, yet we can get so disconnected with each other sometimes. There I go again, if I am not sitting on me bum thinking about what I am supposed to be doing, I'll be going off tangent.
Focus, Fin, focus!
Yeah, I'm still me. Apart from a few more grey hairs (bless my hairdresser) and definitely loads more kilos (I'll start the diet tomorrow, I promise), I'm still me. All 32years of it. And proud of it.
Enough of the intro, sounds so cheesy. As if you don't know me already.
God has been very good to me, even though I have not been thanking Him enough. The idea is there, but I just gotta get it into motion. So much for New Year's Resolution. Not talking about the 2008 ones, the Muharram ones. Praying is still an effort for me. I know, I know, blast me, shoot me straight to hell. Damn it, it should be second nature to me. But what the heck is wrong with me? Setan da serap dalam sangat ke? I need to do some serious thinking here.
Maybe that's the reason I find happiness so superficial. I mean, yeah, I laugh, I feel happy, but deep inside I feel kinda unfulfilled. Like something's missing. Faith. Can't lose sight of it. Hope. Can't let it go, no matter what.
Dammit, Fin, get started.
Lately, I find myself asking a lot of questions. And getting frustrated 'coz I can't get answers to them. And I talk to myself a lot. Am I crazy?
Still not too late, I hope. For redemption.
Take the first step. You don't have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
1 comment:
yayy!! finally a new blog. i've been clicking to haiqma's toothfairy story forever maan! 2006 okay!
erm... talking to self, its ok babe, join the club. WE ARE NOT CRAZIES. it is those who do not, that are. waaakahkhkaha!
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