Wonderfully Blunderfool - Part 2

Yep... correct lah. I gave y'all the right http. I mean, my brain is so all over the place, it's a miracle I can still find my way home everyday. Or maybe that is on auto-pilot already. And actually soooo many things have been going on in my life that I don't know where to start If I were to just blab it all out, it'll be one hell of a jigsaw puzzle n a major pain in the a* to find the gist of it all. But I'll get there... Soon... I'll be savouring some orange cake this wkend... so I'll let you know how it went.

Oh yeah, btw, the kids are doing well. Apart from attempting to make me lose my sanity and patience, they are a couple of sweet angels. Really.

The more I live, the more I think that humor is the saving sense.
Jacob August Riis

Wonderfully Blunderfool

Issshhh..... I think I gave everyone the wrong http to my blog. The funny thing is... I can't remember it also. I mean, I remember my password this time, but I firgot the http. What a dumbass! Now I am practically staring at the screen, trying to get to MY blog to see if it really works. I mean, from the http. This really sucks. I know, you guys are probably in stitches and really turning blue from all that laughing. But this is me. Blurcock. Except that I don't have a cock. Obviously. I'll try again and then I'll update this again. This is so malu-ating!

I bought some batteries, but they weren't included.
Steven Wright

Get on with it!

I know... I know, I've been sitting on my large ass for faaar tooo looong...

Sibling, cousins, friends, colleagues... rejoice! I have finally decided to do the right thing and... erh... lost my train of thought there... oh yeah, update y'all with whatever that's going on in my life. Surprising, considering that we are all living on the same island, in the same time zone, yet we can get so disconnected with each other sometimes. There I go again, if I am not sitting on me bum thinking about what I am supposed to be doing, I'll be going off tangent.

Focus, Fin, focus!

Yeah, I'm still me. Apart from a few more grey hairs (bless my hairdresser) and definitely loads more kilos (I'll start the diet tomorrow, I promise), I'm still me. All 32years of it. And proud of it.

Enough of the intro, sounds so cheesy. As if you don't know me already.

God has been very good to me, even though I have not been thanking Him enough. The idea is there, but I just gotta get it into motion. So much for New Year's Resolution. Not talking about the 2008 ones, the Muharram ones. Praying is still an effort for me. I know, I know, blast me, shoot me straight to hell. Damn it, it should be second nature to me. But what the heck is wrong with me? Setan da serap dalam sangat ke? I need to do some serious thinking here.

Maybe that's the reason I find happiness so superficial. I mean, yeah, I laugh, I feel happy, but deep inside I feel kinda unfulfilled. Like something's missing. Faith. Can't lose sight of it. Hope. Can't let it go, no matter what.

Dammit, Fin, get started.

Lately, I find myself asking a lot of questions. And getting frustrated 'coz I can't get answers to them. And I talk to myself a lot. Am I crazy?

Still not too late, I hope. For redemption.

Take the first step. You don't have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step.
Martin Luther King, Jr.